As I entered zazen today, I became aware of the here-now and my mind racing around with thoughts of what should and what should not be. How zazen should feel and how it should not feel..
Again came the judgements. And then every now and then, for a split second, I was observing that I had plunged into the mind. It was so very subtle and I noticed that there were moments when I had lost the awareness of the mind, and had become the mind. When the mind believes its the being, or the being believes it's its mind - works both ways, but awareness is the key here!
But what of here and now.. Now as I am writing this? Am I really getting mindful of what is going on? Am I detached and observing the mind. Yes and no.. There are no answers that can be answered until I stop using my mind!
One cannot get enlightened from the mind, only from awareness, and that awareness is tricky as we have to make the distinction of what is awareness and what is mind..
Or there again, if all is One.... See what I mean!?