Sunday, 30 September 2012

From Self... Challenge to the Mind.

It is extremely challenging to look at the question, "who am I?"  Every answer just comes back to the question. There is no-one there! For how can the awareness of "I" possibly look at itself? It can only BE  awareness itself, which is everywhere and everything and words can merely point to what is already so, has always been so and will always be so. Timeless, therefore beyond reason, defying all attempts at analysis. Intelligence more powerful than the mind that creates a form of fear in the mind. That's the challenge Self puts before the mind. .  We can know it when we see it, but we cannot wrap it up in a perfect memory to draw on when we need it.  It is now.. All the time it is now. We are already there!

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

This is What We Do..


So this is what we do...

  Although through zazen or meditation it can become obvious that we sabotage ourselves with desiring this thing and that thing, we continue with the sabotage...  

The mind seems to make us forget our centre and when we feel the conflict and begin to suffer to a lesser or greater degree,  there is nothing we want more than to find our centre again. But that is a desire also.  What a neat trap! To observe ourselves getting into this pattern, is to realize the opportunity to end this pattern. But not by doing anything, but by being, whatever there is for us to be. 

In such circumstances, how can you just be? Who can just be?

Friday, 14 September 2012

Cycling With Who? or Playing with Essence? Give it up!


To me today Zen is saying, "for heaven's sake, give it up!"  Be ordinary for from the mundane comes  the profound knowledge that cannot be talked of, but can be transmitted - well so it is said.

I am asking myself,  have I ever transmitted it?

What a pointless question! The question of whether or not I transmitted is past experience.. But experiencing cannot be past at is now! The illusion of past experience is in memory, in the illusory mind!  Did I experience it? What a ridiculous question!

I am reminded of the Zen master, Wu Li saying, "Before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water". So ordinary. So every-day!  So simple! So immediately NOW!  And in my zazen the silence... And then the disturbance... "For heavens sake, give it up!"

Practice the art of waiting. Letting go, yet staying alert. No ambition. Just being in harmony with what's going on in the universe out there. Out there?  In here? Nowhere, no place.  Things come and things go.

Rain… snow.. whatever... Just here. And each season has moves on through and out of its cycle - manifest and un-manifest whilst its essence remains.  The universe doesn't interfere with itself as the mind of humankind does.  There is an exchange. The earth gives, the sky gives. No reason. No worry or judgement about too much, too little, too violent, too weak, too strong.  But what of all this?  Indeed, what of all this?

So I aspire to wait in patience. Just allowing things to pass by. Times and seasons I don't like, will also pass, as will seasons I like. Who likes? Exactly!  No answer, just silence. The eternal self is emptiness. So pure.

Seeing into the truth. Working my way through, and not around the compromising mind. Getting past the politics. They are all illusions. I cannot say who I am. Saying, explaining anything operates in time.  So how can I use these words? They are already gone! Please share....

Who gets stuck in time?

Not-hing. Mu. Yu, Shunyata! Pure essence.




Tuesday, 11 September 2012

Awakening

Getting a higher state of awareness has its advantages AND its disadvantages.

The disadvantages are that I feel things much more deeply as I am getting more in contact with my conditioned mind that doesn't want to be awakened from its stupour!   The problem is that there is no knowing when full awakening will occur. It could be in a moment from now or in a few lifetimes from now.  It comes in its own time, when the practitioner has given up seeking for it. The paradox is that without seeking, it cannot happen, but the very seeking can be a barrier.

The advantages are that through zazen one can have many awakenings that words cannot describe. And then there is a spontaneous development of love and compassion. And understanding that cannot be learned, but is a gift from Self.

Sunday, 2 September 2012

Acceptance, Awareness, Making Distinctions


Tension occurs when two forces originating in the mind are pulling  in two different directions. Life-force becomes out of balance.  Sometimes we appear to get relief and the problem disappears.  But a more serious problem could arise if such relief has not come consciously, with awareness - in other words, our tension has merely been suppressed and not resolved, because we have pushed it away.

Zazen is the practice or non-resistance -  the art of taking awareness to a condition and willingly penetrate through deeper and deeper levels to the core.  The art of total acceptance.  

One then develops the ability to make a distinction between imaginary illusions and true intuition,  never forget common sense,  and especially truths that may come up that one does not want to hear!  This way we can learn to know and be responsible for our own truth, our own resolutions.