Zen is a paradox so not many things make sense. What comes up today? My whole life has been a preparation for this moment. And now it's gone! Always! Is this just a state of mind? It can be or… It is just a state of being. Always has been. Always will be.. Always… Just now. What else can it be? Yesterday was and therefore is not. Tomorrow simply is not. It is nothing. It is now. How can one think about nothing? Not possible. Nothing can be realized, not theorized.