Sunday, 15 December 2013

A Master

A Master...

And this is it. Trust. Total trust.  And you can choose!

Life can be a master;  a stone on the ground can be a master - a butterfly...

Trust that there is something to learn. Sorrow of some loss, can be a master. Fear of that sorrow, even thought there is nothing discernible to fear right now, can also be a master.

You get "what ifs"?  Any one can be your master. Or if you constantly have them... "Ah but, what if this, what if that?"  This could be useful - many masters!

The prerequisite though is that you accept totally and just witness it, and it will be the master.. And if you cannot, you are aware that you cannot accept it, and you are still in desire. So just desire (some object or goal) and know that desire totally to its core until it is no more.

Sunday, 29 September 2013

Irrelevant Zen!

That is where I am. That is what I am. Imaginary It has to be I am in my mind, as my mind.... .All is imaginary.

Whether that is true or not is irrelevant. So I seek truth, but need to drop the seeking.

 So one thinks he has discovered something that is true. So what? If God is there, or God is not there -- so what? He is there to the degree he is not!

It's always been the way it is, and always will be the way it is... but will be?  What am I saying?

Knowing it intellectually is irrelevant! Believing it is irrelevant. Knowing it experientially is profound and then... irrelevant if one begins to believe!

The aphids strip the plant of its life-force.... It is natural.

Thursday, 26 September 2013

Zen Waiting

Waiting is an art of acceptance of being in the now, just waiting for the moment of...

Any time..

Always waiting, and paradoxically, creating that art of waiting will bring us to the here and now. We have arrived where we always were, are now..


Words, as one would say when visiting a Zen garden, are useless, and so we approach Zen with silence, and live Zen silently, yet here I am writing of it...

How else can I possibly convey my Zen? It is so paradoxical.  It is so wonderful....

Leaving one speechless, and if fortune smiles for a moment...

Zen leaves one thoughtless, without thought, without mind.

So how can we speak of it?

Waiting... Wait and see...

Tuesday, 24 September 2013


Mind loves to have so many labels.  If you can understand something, you can feel a little more comfortable. Get it into a nutshell and say, "Ah, this is it. That's why…!"  All reasonable and the mind seeks out reasonableness constantly. It is reasonable to "fix things!" and the mind wants everything fixed… right now! The uncertainty of... What if this? What if that? This is beyond the comfort zone.  Being is uncertain without our labels, and living life as if it is certain is the mind's trick.  But having lived life, one can look back and say " it is certain", simply because it has happened already - we know it well, as it is in our memory, even if it is embellished for our comfort.

But right now, something may go very wrong, it can be as if a thunderbolt has hit us.  We feel helpless. We may search and search for a resolution, but there is nothing we can do - or so it feels… This thunderbolt, the shock, is always the worst ever!

Just the very essence of the shock itself may not provide a fix, may not provide an answer.  No cure! And we may be desperate!  But a "dark night" has come and there is no other option other than to go through it. If here we focus on its essence, we may realize that there is no getting better, but there will come a point when it really doesn't matter. This could be the point of transcending mind and realizing spirit, our essence of being but again no certainty other than the way it is.  We can go where we come from and we've been there before - it's our awareness. Awareness is always certain.

The one thing that we can "do" in such an impasse is to drop our doing and just be. Even though rationally there is no choice, there is!  We can choose it to be the way it is. To walk through it.. Let the shock of this thunderbolt into awareness more and more.  It may be a valuable wake-up call!  Or not! For there is no certainty - if we look closer we may get to see that it actually lights the way!

At one time, there was "I am not" it cannot be grasped by the mind though. Then there was a time when there was "I am". Both "I am" and "I am not" depend on each other. Not aware of I and aware of I.  We create one and we create the other just as white is created by black. To see this, often involves the realization of a thunderbolt.

Letting go, from where we were has led to where we are. Letting go from where we are now, takes us further. Letting go of now.. That's now..  Understand? It is so whether or not...

Tuesday, 20 August 2013

Dropping Lessons..

Dropping the "lessons" from all great masters we look in the here and now where "I-am" exists and teaches experientially, not through words whether they be one's own or others..  Be aware and drop judgement. Is that possible? Inquire and see.

For instance anger...  Examine it closely. Anger at self? Forgive! Accept it as so and work with it, not reacting or trying to obliterate it, but witnessing it. Then work with the essence of forgiveness. Forgiveness is is totally abstract because it is not a "doing" thing. They say it is a verb, to forgive? But it is not done! It is felt, experienced. It is realized, sometimes suddenly one can say, "Ah yes... It is OK now", whatever it is.

Anything... Anything at all that is "wrong", will release with forgiveness, no matter what mistake it is.  So can we quit judging as either trivial or important!

If  we can just see that everything has it's value and it is of value to examine anger - self anger, guilt that releases on forgiveness.  For all is self even another. If I am wrong, or you are wrong - judge it to be so and "wrongness" manifests and feeds on judgement.

Thursday, 8 August 2013

Sounds And Silence

In zazen, the sounds come to me from without. A bird call, a creak from the building, the sound of my breathing.  Who is it that is receiving these sounds?

There has to be a space into which the sounds can flow. That space is the silence. The stillness. The context of all contexts. The emptiness into which the sounds will flows.

Expanding consciousness can see the soundless emptiness that contains all sounds that come and go. Accepted in this way, all sound is transformational, so open up to the sound, whatever it may be. Zazen is not about shutting out anything, but accepting it, embracing it fully. It is not about bliss or angst, but the silent emptiness in the centre of all - no-thing, mu, shunyata,  breathing. The space that contains all the sounds.. I am.

See the sound enter the space of I-am. Silence now. Just a moment.. Silence

Friday, 29 March 2013

Part of the Herd

How it is safe to be "part of the herd".  Because I 'understand' Zen, doesn't mean that I am not subject to conditioning. Because I have glimpsed no-mind, doesn't mean that I am not subject to conditioning.  It serves no purpose trying to "get better". Experiencing is not subject to conditioning. The experience itself maybe a piece of conditioning, but the experiencing is the context of all experiences.  Just look at all responses and ascertain what is spontaneous and what is a reaction (conditioned response). 

Trust to take the leap of commitment, because once a commitment is taken, it is kept - else it would not be a commitment.  Trust the process of experiencing. Respond accordingly and ascertain if such the response is a true authentic response or conditioned response. Just be aware. Do nothing, but watch and witness. Practice zazen.  Look at life and see what self is reflected back.  Don't believe! Know what you are watching, breathing into it.