The more conditioning that is operating in life, the less spontaneity. We need to become mindful and aware of what we are already conditioned with.. It is then, no good trying to forcibly destroy our conditioning, but to allow us to see the truth of universal principles of acceptance and love.
Meditation happens as we begin to see reality. This also is not something we can approach with force. A discipline that is not controlled further by the antics of the mind, but what we choose from our beings.. From our awareness.